dentist.=D

heeeeeeeeeh.went to the dentist ytd.
cos a week ago my wisdom tooth popped out and my gum got infection.
so doc gave me some antibiotic .
and the worse thing is its actually super painful.
and i m @ camp.
yeah.......untra pain lol.
still, dont want to tell wai yi or anybody else.
heeeeeeeeeeeh.
anyway doc says it was way better already,.
duh.i can open and close my mouth freely now. without any pain

guess what.
i was sort of trembling while waiting to meet the dentist lol.
cos the other reason i go.is scaling.
urgh,.brenda has dirty teeth.
ignore that one.
the main point is.scaling needs those 'machines'.
which is a kind of phobia for me.
when i was 2 or 3 .
thanks to the nanny i felt from the baby chair .
and my dear front teeth dropped.
and it cant grow normally since that fall.
so went to dentist and dear dentist says.
i need a operation.
wtf.i m only 3.an operation??hahaha.
it was horible , believe me.
the worst thing ever happen.
so.take care of your children in the future people.!!!!!
dont let nanny feed them.
because of the stupid nanny that dont let me eat my food.
i lost my 2 front teeth and a horrible experience.><
thats sad.
but for me........
its nice.
atleast.
my friends will say .'i dont remember what happen when i was 2 or 3'
i will say 'but i do'
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh.
thats brenda.
way too special..*geeeeez*

confession.

brenda promise herself that.from the moment she is 16 until the moment she is not 16.
she is not going to have anything to split to anyone.just the emo stuff.
eventually its a good stuff.to my dear friends.
they wont have to listen to what brenda is emo-ing everyday.
yay.!
as i said.
KEEP IT TO MYSELF.
lol.dont ask why,
because i dont really know why.
its a random idea that i think i had trouble alot innocents because of my darn emos.
so,yeah,.....=D.
brenda will laugh more.no emo stuff in the blog or to friends in a year time.


lol.anyway .
brenda is not drunk now but after some liquor.
so.let me just speak a few emo words before i shut myself.


sorry for being a not good daughter,grandchild,sibling, friend, student,cousin,classmate, a someone , and what so ever.
no doubt i have to thank buddha for granting me a great pair of parents,my dearest siblings , the big family , teacher , classmates , friends and a someone.
thank you.
i really thought of alot recently and find myself seriously useless.
i really wana work hard.i did try but it turns out just way disappointing.
i m sorry.
in everything i tried.nothing success but failed.
or shall i say i didnt work hard enough.
i myself really dont know.
sometimes,i really think that i m special.
i been thru things that others never been thru.
but i found that i was wrong.
did i been thru what ppl had ?
and i find hw naive i m .




to my dearest friend.
i wana apologize alot alot.
cus.ppl who knows me know my words are sharp.
and they say i always hurt the others.
i tried not to but still repeating the same bad attitude.
i truly know critisizing people at the end will hurt myselff too.
so,brenda will be changing her bad habit.
i will try.i promise.
and thank you to those who really,truly treat me as a friend.like a friend.
i have no idea why.
but this year is a tough year for me.
things had changed.
but i m glad that our friendship are still there.
really,thankful.
as we said.4 years and still counting.forever it should be.
and the not so long but had been thru alot this year ones.
thank you.altho we havent know each other deep enough.
we had still been thru highs and lows.
no doubt there's new friendship that appears.which mostly are my classmates.
i take our friendship very very seriously.i swear.


to those who hate me.
soorry for being a bad girl that makes u hate me.
let me know if u really hate me that much.
maybe i will let u whack me.
><



and to the special one.
thank you for being a caring person.
and i m sorry for being so unconsiderate.
hope our friendship will never ends.
friends forever!!!!!!!!!







kay.lets talk about smth rather happy.
had breakfast at home this morning.
dad was so nice that he cook mee.
which we call 'sou mee'.which means long life noodle.
with 2 eggs and a drumstick.
fyi.its a kind of tradisional dish where people use to eat this during their birthday.
was so touched with it.
after than.mum showed me the watch.
which is my present.
its a fila chrono aka chronograph watch.
yeah.its suppose to be a men watch.,,
what to do.brenda like wierd stuff.
and when i put it on.
mum gave me a 'this is obviously a men watch and its too big for u ' look
i don care LoL.
brenda is a wierdo.
so after that day says he wants to go midvalley.
so we went.
as usual.
then reach home ard 4.
and went pasar malam.
to buy our dinner.
and the cake time.
i choose strawberry cake this time.
randomly picked.
from RT.yeah.
it was quite nice.
and thats all bout my day.
isnt it a simple 16th.
just smtg i wanted,.
altho i expect more.....
its already enough.
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh..

thats all.
no more emo.
love's around the air babeh.
xoxo
brenda,!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

finally............

jeng jeng jeng.
finally its my bdae.lol
perasan siut.
i don care.
just wishing myself happy burfday.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay.
i m 16 now.haha.==
it will be a simple bdae this year.
since nothing is on.so ,,,,,,,.






happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to brenda
happy birthday to me!!!!!!!!!!!

yayyyyyyyy.
i love myself.!








bye.

4 more days.

hah.finally today i haf de mood to speak.
camp was eventually fun.except for the toilet.
stinks stinks alot.
ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

day 1 *
we did our flag.......
ate lunch..........
set tents,,,,.....
best part is our group actually didnt intro ourselves.
everyone is ignoring everyone.*wierd*
and our flag somehow.i don really like it.
took one course and one test .

day 2*
woke at 5.30.and considered abit late.
went for morning exercise.
dam funny.got that qi gong thingy
sokkuan and queenie were standing beside me and we were laughing like mad dogs.
especially the part where the fella's teeth came out.
hahhahaahhahahhahaa.
then.breakfast...........
took 2 course,,,,,,.
started to make new friends like reshee.
cus we had to cook our own lunch.
he was so dont believe that brenda can cook .
even myself dont lol.
but it turns out nice.
went bukit dunnu what.
walk there.
its nice there.
n its the place i started to get high
super.with all seafieldians.
we get super duper uber high.
and we cant stop ourselves.
like crazies.....
hahahahahaha.
at night took 2 exam.
and sleep.


day 3*
woke ar 4.30 since 5.30 is abit too late.
really empty.was so happy
went for morning exercise but without qi gong.but jog
breakfast and took 2 course.
later played games.
quite nice.
our group get to win a few of them
but its a super hard time to bath
and.dinner
2 tests at night
done the day

day 4*
was suppose to wake at 4.30.
terslept.and wake at 5.30
we were shocked.==
this time still don haf qi gong.nor jog
taken 1 course.and went lunch.and another test
amazingly its the last one.HAHAHA
after that got camp fire.
its kinda disappointing cus they didnt really play much games.
i was hoping for oh so.==
dam sad
nvm.
after the performance we did enjoy ourselves.
but same time felt sorry to those.
sorry for disturbing.
and that night we decided not to sleep/and went to chi chat somewhere.
hoover went in first
then koperal lam.
then thu yuen
remaining me
wai yi
connie
queenie
vei lynn.
laughing whole night.
seriously .
laughing non stop.
ask the people there.
no lies.
the jokes are seriously funny.
HAHAHA.

day5*
last day
sobs
was so tired
i almost felt down when i do qi gong.
and did the mr bean thingy on stage.
really embarassing.
i m sorry
really.
i din noe sir would ask us to perform outside.we were just playing ard the day b4.T.T
and closing ceremony
gotong royong
pack back.
break tent
ciaoz.













now i super miss camp.and canat wait for coutdown duty.HAHAHA

after 5 days.

ahaha.u mmust be waiting.but wait.just let me shout smth first.i find that blog is my best thing to shout out.
i feel totally better after shouting here.
cus if i tell my fren.they will get sad or emo together.
and it makes me feel worse.
blah.

y cant i go countdown duty?????????????
i m form 4 already ,
if ure not going to let go now then when..???

.............................................................................
omgomgomgomgogmgomomogmogmogmgogmgomgogmoogmomg
urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
why must things like that happen
and its the last nite of the camp.
if its at the beginning at least i haf the guts to apologize and atleast explain.
goshhhhhhhhhhhhhh
why cant u just reply
just say its ok or smth like that.
atleast my heart wont crumple together and feel like stabbing myself.
i mean.
i m super duper really sorry.
and i feel really really guilty for giving that suggestion and made things turn to be like that
I M SO SORRYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
slap me or scold me please.
its totally better than keeping quiet like that.
killing me with silence.
goshhhhhhhhhhh
i din mean it.
sorrysorrysorrysorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
please reply .
please please please............
do the same thing to me and i dont mind.
just dont not reply.
u are killing meeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
please...........
even the last day u sat that far apart.
not eeven a chance for me to say sorry face to face.
T.T








no mood to tell abt the camp ady larh.
tml larh.
please larh.
reply larh.
u are just killing me
bye

suprise.!

hah
u will be waiting photos at bangkok rite.?
havent.cus i din really take much photo using my cam so currently waiting fr the photos.








guess what.
busy brenda is away again.
to camp this time.







but i have a wierd feeling .
i dont feel like going.
i miss my home.
omgosh.
like super serious.
cos i just came back from bangkok for 5 days.
and now 5 days a gain.
sobx.

i m so gonna miss my dad
my mum
my brother
my sister
my bed
my toilet.
my house.
.T.T.












mummie daddie,
i promise i will take care myself.behave and miss u guys.reallly.i swear.!






to someone,
everything changed.><
and i m totally speechless about that.,
no idea why
but to be honest i really appreciate the time we had.
i'll let go.
enjoy yourself,.
after all its only a short time we met.
heeeeeeeh,,........











smile=XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
brenda loves u all.!
brenda love her family.!


and will miss them.
i think i will cry tomorrow.

geeeeeeeeeeeeeee

brenda is off to bangkok by tml!!!!!!!!
miss me anyone....??
please......just say yes.
hahahahahhha
crazy girl.
hmph.
i m gonna shop till i drop.
remember what elaine say.
mushroom soup.
and.........................
make sure i have fun.
5 days trip makes me miss homeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.T.T

dun worry.i will take alot alot alot of pixxies.
and promise to tell all alll alllll about the trip.



urgh........still raining..........
dumdum nazneen.
she makes me miss her even more.
grrrrr.
not i duwan to talk or chat with u @ fb but msn but seriously.
canot.
everytime half way using sure my bro or sis kacau.
they wana use,
so....
sry...
lagi tdy u wrote in fb that u miss me.
arghhhhh.
just feel like killing u,,,,....
have no idea why i will miss u that much.
maybe is because there is no one to talk to at home.
i mean.......
quarrel.
another one is elaine LOI.
the other one i s ng voon yee.
seriously.
they are those who always make me frus.but not hating them just,..
those kinda i wana fight back type.
HAHAHA.
yien arhh
tching arhhhh
ame arhhhhhhh.
wen lee arhhh
wai yi arhhhh
sok kuan arhhh
aziem arhhhhh
jivee arhhh
grace arhhh
still got a billions and thousands that i missed.





imm so sad.
mum promise to let me go camp bby saying.no outing with friends.
yeah.i choose camp.
cus.it's really a rare opportunity that she will let me go.
sossoososos.
i was begging her but still .red light.
sad.
but.there is still a chance.
my bdae.
haHAHAH
anyone....???
wana bring brenda out to kai kai..?*wink*
but i think no one wants to bring brenda out anyway,,..
hhaahhaha.
super excited cus hours left until i step in the aeroplane.
BRENDA IS SO CRAZY..!
just too.










i wana talk talk talk talk talk all night.
anyone,,,?????????
nahhh.
fine then.











kay.
i think i gotta go.
sis wana use again.==
so sien rite.
buy me a laptop then.then u can chat with me 24/7.*dreaming*
or a guitar...???pweasee.
then i will play nice songs to u.ahahh


ciaoz.
sayonara
bye.
zai jian
zoi kin.
i love u all.
brenda really loves u guys.

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u know who u are.
espeacially recently i dont know what happen,.we get a bit far apart.
no worries.
i trust 110% on our friendship.
i believe true heart conquere everything.
love u my friend.
xoxo.













*if u really miss brenda alot alot.i'll leave my pic there.new one.short haired.=D,..<3