4 more days.

hah.finally today i haf de mood to speak.
camp was eventually fun.except for the toilet.
stinks stinks alot.
ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

day 1 *
we did our flag.......
ate lunch..........
set tents,,,,.....
best part is our group actually didnt intro ourselves.
everyone is ignoring everyone.*wierd*
and our flag somehow.i don really like it.
took one course and one test .

day 2*
woke at 5.30.and considered abit late.
went for morning exercise.
dam funny.got that qi gong thingy
sokkuan and queenie were standing beside me and we were laughing like mad dogs.
especially the part where the fella's teeth came out.
hahhahaahhahahhahaa.
then.breakfast...........
took 2 course,,,,,,.
started to make new friends like reshee.
cus we had to cook our own lunch.
he was so dont believe that brenda can cook .
even myself dont lol.
but it turns out nice.
went bukit dunnu what.
walk there.
its nice there.
n its the place i started to get high
super.with all seafieldians.
we get super duper uber high.
and we cant stop ourselves.
like crazies.....
hahahahahaha.
at night took 2 exam.
and sleep.


day 3*
woke ar 4.30 since 5.30 is abit too late.
really empty.was so happy
went for morning exercise but without qi gong.but jog
breakfast and took 2 course.
later played games.
quite nice.
our group get to win a few of them
but its a super hard time to bath
and.dinner
2 tests at night
done the day

day 4*
was suppose to wake at 4.30.
terslept.and wake at 5.30
we were shocked.==
this time still don haf qi gong.nor jog
taken 1 course.and went lunch.and another test
amazingly its the last one.HAHAHA
after that got camp fire.
its kinda disappointing cus they didnt really play much games.
i was hoping for oh so.==
dam sad
nvm.
after the performance we did enjoy ourselves.
but same time felt sorry to those.
sorry for disturbing.
and that night we decided not to sleep/and went to chi chat somewhere.
hoover went in first
then koperal lam.
then thu yuen
remaining me
wai yi
connie
queenie
vei lynn.
laughing whole night.
seriously .
laughing non stop.
ask the people there.
no lies.
the jokes are seriously funny.
HAHAHA.

day5*
last day
sobs
was so tired
i almost felt down when i do qi gong.
and did the mr bean thingy on stage.
really embarassing.
i m sorry
really.
i din noe sir would ask us to perform outside.we were just playing ard the day b4.T.T
and closing ceremony
gotong royong
pack back.
break tent
ciaoz.













now i super miss camp.and canat wait for coutdown duty.HAHAHA

after 5 days.

ahaha.u mmust be waiting.but wait.just let me shout smth first.i find that blog is my best thing to shout out.
i feel totally better after shouting here.
cus if i tell my fren.they will get sad or emo together.
and it makes me feel worse.
blah.

y cant i go countdown duty?????????????
i m form 4 already ,
if ure not going to let go now then when..???

.............................................................................
omgomgomgomgogmgomomogmogmogmgogmgomgogmoogmomg
urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
why must things like that happen
and its the last nite of the camp.
if its at the beginning at least i haf the guts to apologize and atleast explain.
goshhhhhhhhhhhhhh
why cant u just reply
just say its ok or smth like that.
atleast my heart wont crumple together and feel like stabbing myself.
i mean.
i m super duper really sorry.
and i feel really really guilty for giving that suggestion and made things turn to be like that
I M SO SORRYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
slap me or scold me please.
its totally better than keeping quiet like that.
killing me with silence.
goshhhhhhhhhhh
i din mean it.
sorrysorrysorrysorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
please reply .
please please please............
do the same thing to me and i dont mind.
just dont not reply.
u are killing meeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
please...........
even the last day u sat that far apart.
not eeven a chance for me to say sorry face to face.
T.T








no mood to tell abt the camp ady larh.
tml larh.
please larh.
reply larh.
u are just killing me
bye

suprise.!

hah
u will be waiting photos at bangkok rite.?
havent.cus i din really take much photo using my cam so currently waiting fr the photos.








guess what.
busy brenda is away again.
to camp this time.







but i have a wierd feeling .
i dont feel like going.
i miss my home.
omgosh.
like super serious.
cos i just came back from bangkok for 5 days.
and now 5 days a gain.
sobx.

i m so gonna miss my dad
my mum
my brother
my sister
my bed
my toilet.
my house.
.T.T.












mummie daddie,
i promise i will take care myself.behave and miss u guys.reallly.i swear.!






to someone,
everything changed.><
and i m totally speechless about that.,
no idea why
but to be honest i really appreciate the time we had.
i'll let go.
enjoy yourself,.
after all its only a short time we met.
heeeeeeeh,,........











smile=XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
brenda loves u all.!
brenda love her family.!


and will miss them.
i think i will cry tomorrow.

geeeeeeeeeeeeeee

brenda is off to bangkok by tml!!!!!!!!
miss me anyone....??
please......just say yes.
hahahahahhha
crazy girl.
hmph.
i m gonna shop till i drop.
remember what elaine say.
mushroom soup.
and.........................
make sure i have fun.
5 days trip makes me miss homeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.T.T

dun worry.i will take alot alot alot of pixxies.
and promise to tell all alll alllll about the trip.



urgh........still raining..........
dumdum nazneen.
she makes me miss her even more.
grrrrr.
not i duwan to talk or chat with u @ fb but msn but seriously.
canot.
everytime half way using sure my bro or sis kacau.
they wana use,
so....
sry...
lagi tdy u wrote in fb that u miss me.
arghhhhh.
just feel like killing u,,,,....
have no idea why i will miss u that much.
maybe is because there is no one to talk to at home.
i mean.......
quarrel.
another one is elaine LOI.
the other one i s ng voon yee.
seriously.
they are those who always make me frus.but not hating them just,..
those kinda i wana fight back type.
HAHAHA.
yien arhh
tching arhhhh
ame arhhhhhhh.
wen lee arhhh
wai yi arhhhh
sok kuan arhhh
aziem arhhhhh
jivee arhhh
grace arhhh
still got a billions and thousands that i missed.





imm so sad.
mum promise to let me go camp bby saying.no outing with friends.
yeah.i choose camp.
cus.it's really a rare opportunity that she will let me go.
sossoososos.
i was begging her but still .red light.
sad.
but.there is still a chance.
my bdae.
haHAHAH
anyone....???
wana bring brenda out to kai kai..?*wink*
but i think no one wants to bring brenda out anyway,,..
hhaahhaha.
super excited cus hours left until i step in the aeroplane.
BRENDA IS SO CRAZY..!
just too.










i wana talk talk talk talk talk all night.
anyone,,,?????????
nahhh.
fine then.











kay.
i think i gotta go.
sis wana use again.==
so sien rite.
buy me a laptop then.then u can chat with me 24/7.*dreaming*
or a guitar...???pweasee.
then i will play nice songs to u.ahahh


ciaoz.
sayonara
bye.
zai jian
zoi kin.
i love u all.
brenda really loves u guys.

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u know who u are.
espeacially recently i dont know what happen,.we get a bit far apart.
no worries.
i trust 110% on our friendship.
i believe true heart conquere everything.
love u my friend.
xoxo.













*if u really miss brenda alot alot.i'll leave my pic there.new one.short haired.=D,..<3

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finally after years n years of craving.
i went genting.
yeah.
just call brenda jakooon.
she dont haf the chance to go genting like everyone else.
but din manage to play a thing outdoor since it was raining.
grrrrrrrrrrrr.for the very first time i hate rainy day.

n i painted my room green.
bweeeeeeeeeeeee/
makes me think of wai yi.
arghhh.but its toooooooooooo greenish for me.
i mean.
when u haf green walls and green curtains.
u'll blind.
brenda said so.

tdy shee foong's bdae..........
c.i do remember n yet he is complaining abt this.
LAWLLL.
boy. happie bdae.
u rox.for no reason.
hahahahahahhaa.
u're super duper cool.
laughing.
talking.
santa I HEARTS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

he reminds me of true friends.
idk why.
i think he is the first one who tell me very seriously with that face on about stuff like
'true frens really means understand each other not just seeing u everyday and talk alot'
yea bro.
u're rite.
but still missing those time where we both laughing like crazy during math period.
as if we are in a laughing commpetition.
but thats really happy time.






















i
really
really
really
really
miss
those
timesssssssssssssssssssssss




yea n i m super duper uber emo now.
this moment.
this second.
stop complaining anything.
i dont deserve thattttttt.













am i a good girl?
am i a good friend ?
am i capable.?
should i ?
or not???
sometimes i doubt myself.
i really do.
do u think i m just that bossy.???
i m sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
for being rude.
for being whatever that is wrong.......
for not trusting you.
for not being a whatever that u needs.














hope the rain will wash off those unwanted..
please.













i really cant do it.














argh......................














confused.

.brenda.

120th.

randomness made me touch this blog.

ytd had 4a/09 class party.

i lost my voice.
like seriously.
i dare nt talk today .
because......
reallly eww.
i made a right decision to not going schl.
hah.
brenda is so smartttttttt
woohoo.
and the main reason i lost my voice.
i shout n talk alot ytd.


















































blarhhhhhhhhhh.















i love rainy dayssssssssss.
when i m young.
n now.
but i heard rainy day makes ppl moody.
i think thats true.
maybe.
or.
just brenda is so careless about her friends around her.
i think the 2nd one sounds right.

argh.


someone make me feel useless.
she was sad.i was having fun.
i feel guilty.


someone makes me feel stupid.
she was having something.
i were hoping for something.
i think i'd think a bit too much.

someone makes me feel wierd.
she has that face.
telling me something.
and i can feel her anger.
we.
not like last time anymore.
i have no idea why.
did i ?any mistake..????
i m sorry i dont know why.
she makes me feel miserable.

someone makes me feel uncomfortable.
i think.
its time for everyone to change.
but i really cant accept it.
i understand.
i tried.
but i cant.


someone makes me feel disappointing.
she did things a certain way.
maybe she wants something.
i m sorry to turn my back away.
but she did something.
i think its really bad.















































brenda dont love herself.
thats nt what i want.



















not having a good mood nw.
and i REALLY DONT CARE ABOUT MY RESULTS!

something new

haha.
brenda is having short hair now.

she even paint her toe nail pink n green.

she is doing things that sounds so crazy

but thats what she is.

just more than ordinary.

blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i wana go out with my friendssssssssssssss

just anywhere.


with friends.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i miss my friendsssssssssssssss

a lotttttttttttttttttttttttt


6F gatheriing..........


wait for meeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


brenda is cominggggggggggggg.

hah.

wait till i upload pix kayyyyyyyy.















love ya.