choices.

regardless , I HATE CHOICES.
why do people have to choose?
for a better life .but how do u noe which one leads to your better life.
urgh.dont u just know how unfair it is to be a person that can have 10000 opportunities to choose yet she'll still choose the wrng one?

dont we just born to know life is unfair.
sometimes we give out 100% but what we recieve is like, just a lil part of it?
oh people , life is just unfair.
just pick it up n keep it in ur fragile heart,.

was really depressed recently.
everything just came to me like,,'hello , i m here to visit u'
darn.
exams. to be really konest i gave up because i m afraid.
what does trials means and what does the real spm mean?
i just dont wanna let them down but thats my best already.
i m not a born -to-be-smart girl , i admit.
thats all i can do n i will do better if i cant.
but i really cant.

friends is another thing i was super worried about.
i used to rely on friends alot. and i mean it.
i have no confidence on what are we so gonna be.
everyone says its ok cz we still can keep in touch,
i personally doesnt think it makes sense.
a person , is gonna live in a new environment,new friends , new life.
there isnt enough time for everyone , right?


and to u , <3
its already 3 yrs n guess what , everything is just fresh in my mind.
how r u doing?
i was sitting infront of my study table n memories just rushed into my mind.
i remember how i promise myself to not shed my tears anymore for u .
but it just dropped easily.
i think that's fate.
like how we are not meant to be.
to recall all these,
arent these jokes?
that had been fooling and torturing both of us?
since the day , i started to grow.
to forget.
to let go.
but until today , i cant forget a single thing about u
altho everything bout u have been dump away.
then i understand.
boy , this is life and this is love.
it;s fated to be so.
lets just get our asses off and face it.
like how u told me. close your eyes and walk thru it,.=]
it;s impossible to forget u and i will never do so.
but havin u as a part of my memories is already enough.
no matter how deep is the cut , one day it heals.
i'm sorry we cant finished the story we talked about.
i believe there's a better future ahead u ,huh?
i think its time to let go .
bye.for the very last time , i love you.































ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.haha.shut this window down if u seriously thinks brenda is annoyin. i dont give a damn.isnt this my space to just spilt whatever i want?










i m so gonna miss form 5.and my classmates...i used to hate them but i found that they are okay actually.there r somehow funny,nice people....i think,i'm getting use of their existence already?haha.god knows.








for once, let the dream control yourself. i m tired ,really tired. someone , just bring me somewhere pls.














loves,brenda