Sunday, June 29, 2008

i'm nothing...

hah.mum was nagging me recently.she was exclaiming abt all my results n the future PMR lol.yeah.everyone said PMR is easy.yeah, who didnt score means idiot.gosh gosh gosh.not like i dont want to try.i did but the results were still like that then what.commit suicide.trallala de lala.

eh,who wants to get such bad results?as if there's worst result awaard.wtf.ahhhh.i'm now half way giving up my studies lol.no point going that hard n the results were just a dissapointment.no way.i wasnt the kind for study.i wasnt the kind in daddy n mummy heart.nonononono.if u'd asked me to be born or not, i will say no.or shall i say i wish to be born smarter,atleast dont let my parents get 'ah,ur result..' n shook their head.

to think about it now,i m nothing.
not a great daughter.
not a great sister.
not a great friend.
not a great 'brotha'.
not a great seafieldian.
not a great coperate member.
not a great whadecer.
not a great studism.
hah,
i'm nothingggg.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

loves n hates.

who knows what will happen next?

omgomgomg.human can be loving while hating anything. anyone at the same time.wtf.thats what i got confused.

hahaha.omg.i used to think back last time.n everything in the past is what i want.

i want those type of cheerful which i used to have.
the crazy one.
omgggggggggggggggggg.i don like me.
i am yucky now.super duper yucky.
ewwwwwwwww.
i have to act like omg i hate when i really do love u.wtf

who knows where's u n me going to be?
what i want is just my dignity.
could the past just hand it back to me?
oh nooooooooo.

i m lack of humour nowadays.omg.i did bad job at the st john room ytd.
everyone's laughing while my face turned black.
i cant .sorry i cant .

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

lost.

omg.it's already 2 days n brenda is still lost.lol.i mean.at school.especially today.

i m fregggin lost .

blahh.i dont even know why m i writing nonsense here lol.just ignore me.haha

i likey today.[cos ,it's the day which i'm so lost].haha.i was so good girl that i actually went to clean the st. jonh room .lmao x).yeah,guess what i did there.i swept the floor n usually we 3 have to clean the windows but today.since it's a happy day for me, we made it more fun.game will decide who;s gonna clean the window n ofcourse,that's will never be me.

awhh.this morning was a rainy morning.i love rainy days.it's just so refreshing.lalala.it's just what i like.

but chilly rain makes me think of someone.lol.hahahah.just a friend.a very best friend.he told me he'll hand me blue umbrella when outside's raining.blue umbrella is because i love blue n blue will never leave my 'brenda-ever-favourite' list.lol.i miss those days.

we seek for each other..we tread our stuffs..his candies..his tissues[long story with the tissue]...

sorry i might hurt you but...x_x

lol.i felt so sorry for him.and the blue umbrella [which i never foget].it's my bad to make that idiotic decision.as we both reach a compromise that we both will not make our tears drop for each other.

haha.i'm speechless.but nothing can change my love for blue.lol.i m so into blue n i crazy for blue.lol.

brenda's blueeeeeeeeeeee.lmao.
<3

Saturday, June 7, 2008

.....

arghhh.hols' gonna finish lol.no offence on that actually.lalala.

i was so boring today n i ter-saw my form 2 math book.i was attracted to it so i search for my form 3 one to 'so-called-practice' my math.ahhhh.i cant do .i almost tear the book , spoil my piano*which i don reallly mean it*,break my favourite cup,cut my finger again , drop from the stairs, quarrel with my mum etc.*omg so violent.*

wth.i cant do my form 3 math .oh goshhhh.it spoilt my super nice mood.@$&%@!@#%$.*bang wall*.no man.i cant believe it.what i learnt was flushed into the sewage pond.pfft.omg.....help anyone.??

don feel like going back to school.dont feel like being myself which i used to be.dont feel like sms anyone.[sry those who i reply really late such as.chyi tian,jian sheng n my gor.].i was quite depress n dump my phone.T.T.

i promise not to keep any secrets from u anymore.
i promise.
u are always in my best friend list.
n i believe,friends like you are for life.

Monday, June 2, 2008

camp.

woah.it;s a quite delayed post lol.n owh it's all about camp.fyi,brenda ng hueh min did not go for any camp before.this is my first camp and it's the first st john area camp in conjunction.=D

what i can say is just woah! n woah n woahhhhhh.

the blur me get to be clear at this camp.everything d.i.y.no mummy no daddy.n for sure no kakak as usual cos i don use to have one.it's a quite nice camp that we have comitee that consider good.

first dayy.30th of may.

first thing we do is to built up the tent.owh,n we had been divided lol.but thanks buddha cos the lucky brenda n wai yien were in the same group.bwahahaha.atleast i got someone to rely on temporary.
n then it's the survival course.using a can of red bean,two potatoes, 1.5L of water n rice.first time i see people cook using branches n dry leaves to light up the fire wei.how cool.the potatoes were not reli cook i thinkbut we had to act like we reallly love it .n then it was the time for us to work for our foood.first is the 'kinda-look-like-jungle-with-compliment-river' jungle ,we found onions n rice n vege there.n then is the down stream of the river.that's the hard part.taufoo n eggs n fishballs in the river.owh nnonononoo.n comitees' muddy water that splash us.ew man.u wont like it.
after that we cooked n eat n bathe.i'm smart that i chose to bath before i eat while others eat first.i think i would be bathing at 11 if i didnt bathe.after the dinner was ice breeaking.n burung hantu.(a game that they set up to make u believe in others.and kena moquito bites oso.ahah).we did take our supper too.n then it's time to bed.n i really miss my family.i notice how much i love them then.

2nd day.31th may.

6pm morning call but we did wake at 5.45 which is not allowed.n the nite b4 had a heavy rain n water intrudes our camp.but we didnt bother n keep sleeping cos we were TIRED.
today was rather fun.
we had to cross obtacles in the jungle.it makes me think of george the jungle lol.n then we went into the kolam.that's the fun fun fun fun fun part.n that is the moment i realised chyi tian a.k.a banana dunnoe how to swim.ahahahah.me n wai yien both laughed.i don mean it actually.he looks silly in the water,cute indirectly.=D.
after that it's lunch time.they prepared lunch for us.cos we were all exhausted.fried rice for lunch.no nice actually.n we realised that only the carrot taste salty.those i had lunch with was wai yien, amelia,wan tching, chyi tian,jian sheng.we laugh n laugh n laugh.lol.
no more longer it's flying fox time.brenda ng afraid of height actually.n that's what i didnt really dare to do.T.T.i m born to be like that.ofcourse no one force me to do that .but i tried.XP.i was so 'brave' n told chyi tian 'i told u i sked of high but actually i m not'.but the moment i climb up the so called stairs.my legs were shaking.ah.but thx wai yien for guiding me up there .n i found that it was fun fun fun.
after that we sat there while waiting for others.the banaana was so lonely that he came n talk to us.ahaha.we critisized him.sorry chyi tian.i know i'm bad but i'm lovin' it.ahahaha.
at nite was the camp fire.i love that alot.the new fren farm n the oh so thingie.my first time playing 'oh so' n it's fun.hahaha.what u can hear from me is just laughter.bwahahhaahahahah.we bathe after the camp fire n it's 11++.ouch.how cold could it be.but we have to .T.T.owh.n middle of the nite they got firedrills.i m blur.super blur until i wore slippers.oh no.luckily nothing happen to me.n wai yien the other blur case went to the wrong place n she gotta do more punishment than us.ahaha.n there's twice.3 o'clock once n 5.30 once.nice thingie

last day. 1st of june.

we ate breakfast that is provided today.after that we unpack all our stuff n the tent.after that we gotta put on our full-u.ahhhh.n the closing ceremony n lunch.finally rice n chicken n vege n curry.kinda full.
n it's time to go home .T.T.n photo session ofcourse.
n when i reach home .woahhhhh.i didnt expect dadddy cooked sharkfin soup lol.daddy is a good cook.i mean.he knows how to cook.that's why i m happy cos my daddy n mummmy cooks.XD.n it's sharkfin soup lol.time to enjoy myself.daddy,i love u alot.

this camp.
i learn things.
i do things i dont dare last time.
i know my friends.especially the besties[yien,tching n ame]
jian sheng as known as soon,chyi tian and hoover.
lol.i shall thx chyi tian.he'll just ask u 'eh,u ok ady or not?'.'u got take medicine?'.
aahhaa.he is such a caring person.n he is funmy.i like the way he move when he do the 'cute cute'exercise.ahahah.*thx to me for promoting u chyi tian*


i m now.
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