i am not you

u will never know what my feelings.

urghhhhhhh.stop itttttttttt.
seriously,i found nothing in friendship.
it irritates me for like 29872658745271654 per day per minute per second.
wtf.wtf.wtf.wtf.wtf.wtf.
what else can i say?
what else can i do?

if u want me to take baack what i'd say.
or take back friendship between us?
tell me then.
i can do nothing but just doing what u want me to do.
if u want to hold back our friendship just tell me face to face.
and i dont mind.
it's just another cut on my heart since there is one there already.
it just make my heart bleed more n thats all.
rather than you hate me.

i have no choice and you have the authority.
what elseeee.
hoping our friendship counting on years n years later.???
or wished we are the 'forever' friend??
it sounds sosososososo miserable.
foreverrrrrrr??
forever sounds nothing in my heart.
it hurt me badly few years ago.
i trust forever,not.

if u wanna hate me .
for things happened that day.
go ahead.
but, the games were all my idea
i asked them to play it
blame me for doing that.
and i m sure they are pretty innocent for this.

that might be our fate.
i guess.
whether it's time to let go or not.
it's all up to you.
well.
whatever you are thinking.
and seriously i cant doubt what u 're thinking.
i might leave the second scar in my heart.
but i have to admit that.
before all these scenes.
i take you as my friend.
hah.

how deep our friendship is doesnt depend on how close we are,
but depend on how much we know each other.
-brenda-

grandma's stories.

lol.dadie brought us to midvallaey tdy.apparently,i haf no mood.my 'popo's stories' keep coming out n the worst part is i can think about those stories until i get lost.bwahahaha.

kk...let me start my first grandma's story.

M and E were sort of dutying for smtg...n it's time for them to rest.here it starts.
eh,E let's go makan ice cream lo.
kkk,jom
[while they are walking]
E,tell me who u like larh
y must i tell u orh?
normally ppl will tell secret to someone who is not that close to them de..
isit?ooooo.
haha[thinking deeply,M already take E as her best n close fren.since E was the one who helps her for 23876154 times]
k larh.[after long while hesitating].i like...xxx
omggggggg.serious.??dont worry i wont tell deeeee...
[and then, they bought their ice creams and keep talking abt it]

ahh.....E trusted M that must.M did keep E's secret......haha.but what if one day.M unable to keep that secret anymore.compare to E,M is just an ordinary girl.well,additionally cannot do things well.when E trust M that muchhhhh,thatttttttt muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i mean,and what if M really cant do it,will their friendship just *sigh* ..................[fill in the blank then]

trust,sound so important.among friends.
trust,sounds so warm,so sweet.
trust,somtimes do sounds like,,killing your friends.
u trust your friend can do it,u mean u believe she can do it.
in other words.your friend try her best to do since you believe her that much.
but what if she can??you will just regreting for trusting her at the first place.?
that shows how much you trust her .??
why not you ask her how much she'd tried.?
why not you ask her why she gave up?
after trying n trying, she felt her work was so untidy and gave up.
since she dont want to ruin it.
maybe she was wrong for giving up that soon.
but why not you change your point of view.
stand at her point n think.
'i dont wanna ruin my best friends project that's why i stop doing it.at least,it will still be 100% instead of 50%'
she realises that her work wont help you but just make it worse n she stop it.
but atleast she did a lil bit of that.
because she trust her best friend will know that from her pair of hands.
her work ended up without appreciation.
as she trust that you will give her a warm thank you.
maybe just a thx without the long thank you n deduct the 'warm' word.
since she knew she didnt do much.
urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.that's just so sickening.


btw.i felt guilty when i think abt this.wellllll.......sry a***** for being that rude infront of u.i shall say, i should not giving 'comments' on you like i'm perfect or what so ever.
what can i say else.?

SORRYYY.
truly frm brenda.

lol.for you.*

as i promised beat.these 2 tags' for you.<3 here it goes.. : What is his/her name?
lollll.my beloved beatrice.

heehee xDxD


How old is he/she?
well...she is same age and me...
.our bdae is even in the same month .



Did he/she ever betrayed you before?
well....yes or no arh beat????
hahhahahha..i will consider that as no beat.
since it;s just a joke rite,.

Do you love him/her?
101%

Is he/she your soulmate?
urhums.i dont wish to...
.hah.well.


What do you think about him/her?
a sampat n when me n her combine it's ultra sampat.

Would you give him/her a present?
yeah.y not....she saw how nice was that present i did with true heart.

Is he/she a liar?
no??yes??okay,no one isnt a liar anyway.
somehow.u will lie someone someday *if you havent*

Would you marry him/her?
nopnopnop.she is so sampaat n i m even more.
cant imagine if we marry n what would happen

Be it that you're more famous than her, would you dump him/her?
i will never be like more famous that her..
she is so omg-ly smart.
she plays piano better than me.
she even can do the chest balance thingie*only thing i know abt gymnastic*[thats what she taught me also.]

Tag 10 people you (kinda) care about
wellllll.
just do it if u're interested.....

#2
1. What is your relationship of you and her?
- she is my darling.<3

2. Your 5 impressions towards her
smart, intellegent,specky,sampat,love to laugh.*that's our similarity*

3. The most memorable thing she has done for you
blast out with a white lie and ended up hugging me who is crying like no one's buiness.

4. The most memorable thing she had said to you
well........most memorable.???owh...'i am sorry'

5. If she becomes your lover, you will...
sama sama got crazy nnnnnn.we can just talk abt small topic and laugh whole day

6. If she becomes your enemy, you will...
i cant win her,she knows chest balance which i dont know. :)

7. If she becomes your lover, she has to improve on...
nothing.since our sampat-ness reach until 'certain level' that we laugh abt crazy things.

8. If she becomes your enemy, the reason is...
white lie???arhhhhhhhh.i know beat wont do that again.well,just blame that i m dumb .

9. The most desirable thing to do on her is..?
desirable...???hang out with her whole day long.just us 2.hah.*sounds so wrong*

10. The overall impression of her is...
boooh,sampat.<3

11. How do you think people around you will feel about you ?
genius,,[well.she is]

12. The character of you yourself is?
happy go lucky.??emo??lol.i'm a random person.

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is ?
hot hot temper.well,i got really hot tempered from my dad.what to do.i m born to be litat.hah.
so.dont mess with me.muahahah

14. The most ideal person you wanna be is?
lol.just whatever i am.

15. For those people who care about you and like you, say something about them.
i <3>


well.tdy,i was so miserable.
people wil always say brenda,y u say u are miserable when u dont look like u're.
owhhh.i dont like to show my miserable-ness infront of people...
thats all.
n i dont get why
why must you gimme that cold face.
like we never know each other.
in my memories ,
i can remember vividly ..
we laughed n shared together.
so can i know why??
urgh.u're just making me sick.
so obvious that i'm that unwelcomed when u first saw me just now.
pfffft.
i need a reason n that's all.

haste finally went offff.

pfffffffft.exam's finally overrrrrrr.

hmph,it's actually a small matter rite compare to spm.lol.okay.who cares la.
dont ask abt how's it.......no offence.
kaykay.
guess what i did ....
it's so omg fun man.....
hahhahahaahhaah.*sstomacheache*
i went home for a bath.
thennnnnn,,i went summit with queenie .trying to meet the 4 dumbos.
when i was walking to the cinema i met SOMEONE.
wearing purple shirt or u called it maroon*u know who u r man* .
i intend to say hi but then he came out with something that seriously ,,,omg.
seriously.feel like giving u a wtf but i didnt cos i m in a so dam good mood .
fine then we went for a movie.guessss what.
pfffft.julian ,siew yin,paul,lean etc etc were sitting infront of us.lol.
hah.hah.hah.*speechless.*
kaykay.after that,,,,,,,
ahahahaa.not good to tell.anyway i've gona crazyyy.playing the 'basketball'.
n its like.woah.exhausted when i came home ..
lol.n now.muscle aches .
well.sad things might happen when we're having fun.
i was so wtf-ly emo when we're walking back to ame's hse bt still.
i'd made that decision to not to quit it.haha.n not giving up what i have now.haha.only yien n tching will know what i'm saying..*ignore it.*

bren loves u..

last words

may i make my last words .bwahahhaahahahahahaha.

all the best for those who are taking pmr next week.!

n to myself also.hahah.
good luck-goodbye.