isit too much for me.?

ha.i 've got alot alot alot to tell.
shut the thing off if u are nt patient enuff to read.*i don mind*
just let me blast eberything out so that i feel better.

warning:it's totally emo and sad.
things are making me crazy this few weeks.
i doubt my ability.
seriously.
i tried very very hard to cope with all the things
but what turns out is .
i ruined every single things
....
i m sorry.
seriously.i m making more troubles for u.
i arranged once u haf to change it so that it is a better one.
i dont want this to happen.
it's like.u are helping me alot alot alot.
n i m repeating my mistakes.
n i cant even arrange it nicely.
gosh.
i m so ooooooooo.USELESS.
and i dont deserve it.
should i just give up.???
can i??
i felt irresponsible like that.
but i already tried my best.
i really dont know what should i do

u expected alot alot more from me.
n i bet i disappointed u once n twice.
gahhhhh.shall i said i m like that.
or shall i tell u i dont work hard enough.

i m afraid.
seriously.


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u know what i found that life's seriously miserable.
i dont get life.
i always ask myself why is my life like that.
does everyone go thru the same thing as i do..?
why must i get to know that much about life.
i know.
life is beautiful.
but it's also get dark when the sun sets.
do u ever know how lonely is that.?
i m thankful that my health is ok.i got a great family.
but why.
under that.
there's still alot alot alot.
why must ppl keep telling me how life is?
the dark side of it.
telling me the truth they'd been thru thats seriously not what i want.

i m just an ordinary girl.
who wants what i want.
do u know how many times did i smile in the previous week.
n how many times i did when i was in form 2.
why must we getting 'matured' and. having lesser smiles on our face.
I DONT WANT THAT,!

but,can i???

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do u know clowns have tears that are unseen.?
how much they worked are unknown
what they know is .
i want to make the kids smile.
they did stupid stuff to make ppl laugh.
but.
do you know what the clowns are thinking?
i'm alone.
why must it be like that.
no one knows.
what can i do?
i m tired.
really.
but,will the laughter continues without me?
let's think about it.

*took @ Sabah.m i good in taking pictures...*nod*

*unpredictable.

i miss christmas.i miss last year.

can u see what's underneath?*

tagg..

from my babi#
1. The person who tagged you is :
Alice Ang Ying Ying

2. Your relationship with him/her is :
she's my piggie.=D

3. Your first impression of him/her is:
Funny.totally insane

4. The most memorable moments with he/she is:
she invite me to her bdae party

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you is:
ng hui min or ng hueh min arh...?

7. If he/she became your lover, what should he/she improve that:
hah.nothing lol.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, what will you do:
i will kill her n roast her

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
She laugh better than me.wakaka

10. The most desired things you want to do for him/her now is:
hang out with her??

11. Your overall impression on him/her is:
sweettttt

12. The characteristic you hate most about yourself:
hot tempered.

13. The most ideal person you want to be is:
jay chou/

14. For people who care and love you, say something to them:
but i dont???haha.kidding

15. Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you:

1. yien
2. tching
3. ame
4. wen lee
5. wai yi
6. sok kuan
7. voon yee
8. jiveee
9. jie yinn
10. grace

16. Who is 6 having a relationship with?
do u think she will?

17. Is 9 a male or a female?
Female

18. What is 2 studying at the moment?what others are studying??
I bet no one's studying right now >D

19. Who was the last person you had a chat with?
stella.sms

20. What kind of music does 8 like?
hmmm??

21. Does 1 have any siblings?
2 elder bros

22. Is 4 single?
yep

23. What is the surname of 5?
feng

24. What's the hobby of 3?
sleep.XP

25. Do 7 and 9 get along well?
classmates.

26. Where is 10 studying at?
SMK Seafield

27. Say something casual about your eyes:
not nice

28. Have you tried developing feelings for 2?
i didnt try.

29. Where does 9 live?
usj 2

30. What colour does 4 like?
PINK duh

31. Are 5 and 1 good friends?
They're okay (:

32. Does 2 like 7?
don think so

33. How did you get to know 8?
KOPERASI,

34. Does 3 have any pets?
fishy

35. Is 7 the sexiest person in the world?
Shehas nice body figure.

36. Are you sexy?
nop

37. What am I doing now?
blogging duh

I'm tagging the following:

ho want tching.....
n if u 're my frens.do it.





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lol.so sadddd.
i have no idea what i m thinking now.
dammit.
y must it be like that.
ishhhhh.
i prayed soooooo hard to just make u get lost of my life
but why the hell do u just appear once and twice ??
making me looks so darn stupid in front of u.
i tried my best already but what else can i do?
my heart strains when i ever sees u.
let's just pray hard that everything will be over.
although i know.i still loves u.