just follow your heart.

天天天晴

2011-05-14T07:24:00.000-07:00

have been watching it for past few days.
omg it is so addictive...
but felt quite sad at that part where the main character quarrel..
lol..

在这个时代，没有人能遵守一生一世的承诺..
this is like so true..
hahhaha..
felt really sad when i saw that part...no doubt it's so true
not just love, friendship is the same too..

hhaha..
when i was young , i believe in forever.
i really believe there is such beautiful tales in the world.
and now , i wish to believe but i dont anymore.
the world changed.
the people changed.
cant imagine how is it gonna be after 10 years .. 20 years..
there is no more love but selfish..
awhh, thats so sad to say it out but thats so true.

lol.......
urgh, semester is on monday..gosh this is killing me!!!
regret for not revising my homeworks.
urgh
bio is still okay for me since bio is my consider ok subject..
math is half gone,,
gosh , statistics really kills me man
chem even worse..
its just makin me feel more brainless.

ahhhhhh,,, and sem exam will be my forecast result.
this is even worse.
gosh gosh gosh gosh gosh.
help me someone?
urgh.
how i wish i was in secondary,,
atleast there is amelia , or wen lee or wai yien or tching or voon yee or wai yi or elaine or sok kuan or anthony ...
just for me to ask them wadever i don understand?
finally realise i grew up.
living a life tat says ' u are on your own , miss silly'
gosh,,,!!!!!!!!!!1
i m a super dependent human.
i need someone!!!
please don treat me like that.,..
hahahahha
and i seriously must pass this time
its a deal with my dearest mum.owh
no pass means no more st john..
ohh emm gee..
thats like , taking oxygen away from me..
how can she???
but she is my mum anyway..
stil haf to do it..
just pray that the paper is gonna be alrite for me?
hahhahhaha.
hope so..
or just pray that she will say..its ok if u faill..nvm u still can go for st john activity..
i think she realise how obsess m i with st john cus she had been askin me.
did u pay attention in class or u are just thinkin of ur st john stuff again?
LoL.
she reads my mind.
hahahahahahaha.

heeeh..its me..awhhh*shy* LoL..swt, it has been ages since i put my photo on my lovely diary..so just bare with it..

i used to be a super ss person that i put all my ss pics on my dearest blog.. but once, i dont dare anymore because i think sometimes i just dont know where i standd..
but now .
I DONT CARE!
i wana do things that i wana do..
its for me to look back next time and atleast say ,'woah, i even took a pic like that'
i wana haf memories like that! heeeeh..
so i hereby officially announce , the lively and crazy me has returned *drum rolls*
thank you.=P

and next i present a lil uglay art piece from me.=)

jeng jeng..heheheheheheh....just some random thing.hahahahahahahahahahahahah

i really miss myself alot..
the one who laugh like insane .
who cares i got 'yi tai' or not.
who cares whether i m gonna haf a boyfriend just because i m a super tom-boy.
I WANNA BE ME , MYSELF AND I.
=)

unpleasant day

2011-05-09T05:55:00.000-07:00

wad de!!!!!!

urgh...

i wana drive i wana drive i wana drive!!!

how i wish i can super loudly shout this out

grhhhhhh..

i hate to look at ur face when i tell u i haf to attend any sat activities cus u will be like, urgh, u know how tired it is?

LET ME DRIVE MYSELF THEN!

i freakin dun understand.

why at the first place u wana let me get my damn p?

for fun?

i can tell u it is super not funnay..

why do u wana complain how jam it is..i told u rite?

its either i drive myself or just take d bus!

not like i m a dum that don even know how to take a bus?

dont u know how annoyin is ur 'comments' about how jam it is on the road

oh please.

stop stickin d stupid p on d windscreen then. it just kills me more.

just peel it off n stick it in a sticker book!

it will definitely look better there than on tat dum windscreen!

urgh.

if u really dowan to 'teach' me how to drive.

just let me be then.

wads ur point of makin me hangin half way

and then let me listen all those. that i hated most.

no offence but i hate it when i need to rely on someone

I CAN DO IT ON MY OWN!

thats wad i know.

u seriously don haf to drive me if u really dont want to!

what i seriously need know is a great darn shoutout!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nothing but angry. and disappointed.

2011-05-08T02:07:00.000-07:00

oh my gosh...

why things just get hay wireed!!!!!!!!!!!

do u know how sad is it to see that post?

ahhhhhhh

why can things just turn into this way?

few months ago...

we were besties.

we laughed.

we shared everything.

we haf the same thoughts.

we promise to make everything better.

but why today , just because u wana stay at a place that for me, i think its unnecessary?

i dont know to trust u anymore.

you talk to me like u still care.

you still speak like we are still besties.

but what u are doin now is not like what we wanted to do,i thought?

i feel bad when u still smile at me.

i have no idea what reaction i should gif u.

oh pls,

this is worse than u tell me u hate me in my face.

maybe is not your fault.

maybe u did not change

maybe is me who changed.

stop blaming that 'event'

its not because of that that i get further from u .

maybe we have diff visions.

maybe we work differently to get what we want.

at the end of the day u are still my friend.

just that , we aim for different things.

haah.

人各有志，如果那是你要的，我祝福你.

i cant never deny that i still miss u , as a friend that fight for the best.

wwwierd...

2011-04-11T11:42:00.000-07:00

urgh..its 2.45 midnight n i dont feel sleepy by anyhow.
i have this bad feeling.
why...
missing someone somehow just kills me.
i tried to let go n put it down.
and i cant.
grhhhhhhhhh,
i hate myself for bein such a scary cat.
why am i like that?
i think i m really insane.!

how i wish i have the guts to stand up and tell u how i feel.
how i wish.
haha.

recently , things just happened way out of control.
想笑来伪装掉下的眼泪

cloudyy

2011-04-07T05:21:00.000-07:00

gah, i tried really hard to live my life.
but things just cant stop bothering my life.

why is people just get jealous easily?
is authority really that important?
does milgram's experiment correctly proves that?
i guess so.
i dont understand.
cant you just explain why. ?
urgh..
i give up.
i hate those words coming out from your mouth.
those mean words that stab into my heart.
how can u
throw those words out like no body's buiness.
insane. scary. creepy.
thats all i can think about you.
anyways , i dont blame you.
because , everyone desires a different life.
all i can say is good luck.
and to be truthful , i really appreciate you as a friend , once even a close one.
maybe , we are just not fated to be close friends .
maybe , this is just a lil tiny obstacle.
i have no idea ,
but i think i need to take a break
atleast , to prepare myself.
and ready to take it up and let be friends again.
i will try , very very hard till that day.
and i wish , that day will come soon.

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eee,, after 3 month or rather 4 months in college , i haven even talk about college here.
haah.
college is awesome..
food is everywhere but they are super duper expensive..
urghh, thats sad. haha
made a number of new friends. but sadly all are my classmates,.
they are unexpectedly nice .
they joke around often and thats nice.
like ..mmmmm, atleast they are not a 110% nerds.HaH

people has been dressed like really prettay n nice to coll.
awh,,how i wish i can too.
but i insist not to.=)
or , shall i say
if u are pretty ,what you wear doesnt matter.
and i know i dont so, just forget about it.
heeeh.

and the dark side of college?
my result.
oh insane.
my results are dropping like mad.
like , i used to fail.
but not as low as 20%?
really disappointed with it,
somehow , i think i did the wrong decision to take up a levels.
but i dont care.
since i started it , i will go on.
untill i complete it.
yes , i will.
i dont do things half way.=).
thats so not my style.

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recently i had a dream.
a nightmare.
i saw my old self.
the bad girl who does everything bad.
ahhh, i screamed.
i dont wana see those again
those memories that i would like to wipe off from my life.
i am afraid .
what if people finds out what i did.
what will be their expression?
cant imagine..
i swear , i wont do whatever i did before.
=) .
nightmare, please go away.
=D.
atleast i m trying very hard now to be a good girl now.
teehee..

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to the one i loved.
hope you are in your best now.
decision has to be made.
life has to go on.
it's time to let go.
i hope at least , you will remember me.
adios,
for the very last time
i love you.

after 5 months.

2011-03-17T04:33:00.000-07:00

yes,i am back. with more emo sad stories, funny but dumb stories. =)

it's a seriously new life that i am having now.

urgh, college aint that fun like they mention.

i m being a quite loner human there.

i m afraid to talk.

cus, i dont know what to talk.

i m afraid people will get offended with what i said.

but i used to talk like that , just that they dont understand.

it's a new life that i m trying to fit in.

for me, i am struggling to fit in.

i used to think i can do it and i will fit in easily.

but i cant.

i dont know how.

maybe i m the naive one.

maybe i am the selfish one.

I JUST SIMPLY CANT FIT IN THE LIFE NOW.

people always say, life is complicated.

n i always ask why.

life is just being either happy or sad...

there isnt anything that is complicated,.

hah , n now i laughed at myself.

isnt it rediculous to ask why.

i m tired.

this time i really am.

how it became like that.

we played , worked , eat , sleep , study , laugh , cry together,.

and today, the bond between us just broken like that.

pieces of memories just scattered around.

why? i wana ask WHY.

i hate to see it when everyone is laughing at the outside but poking each other at the inside.

what is this? n since when , we happened to be so?

i feel like connecting us back but how,

tell me what can i do.

life havent been so miserable to me until today,.

haaah , am i just too dumb somehow.

phewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

hope everything is seriously gonna be better.!!!!!!!!!

seriously,this had been bothering me for weeks.

i need to settle this if not i seriously haf to drop my studies LOHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

grhhhh.h.....h.h.hh.h.h.h.h.h.hh

to you, imy.

alot,.very much,.sangat banyak,.

random

2010-10-15T02:33:00.000-07:00

was really mad yesterday.thx to someone who ffk me.
like , i really hate that.

anyway , i had finished jps's trials.
gosh my results are tirrible.
like , sobs.really bad
it's another sign for me to really start studyin for spm?
not like i do not want to but i really find no way those words can go into my brain.
what m i suppose to do huh?

LoL.
miserable still stays in my heart .
like wth , i have no idea what caused this but yeah.
friends . exams . and everything.
i started to afraid i will lose all of my friends.
those really true friends that really gave out their hearts.
those who really be there when i need help.
like , we dont have to talk alot bt we just understand each other.
how m i gonna take it if we're gonna be apart.
like , there will be a new life n blah.

and i started to lost.
whats life?
someone sys its great.
someone says its hell
and i dont know how m i suppose to look at the world.
someone told me to trust only yourself.
someone said everyone on earth is selfish.
someone just revealed how evil is the truth.
what m i suppose to believe,
i used to.
really used to be a girl.
that thinks life is great.
i will enjoy every moment of my life.regardless.
every memories in my life . its precious.
but why does the truth just prove me wrong
why does everyone changed when it comes to reality,.
i thought people always say no matter what , its friendship , love , brotherhood , family and so on.
thats so not true.haha
started to realise whats life and yet hope what i understand now its not what normally people call life.
haha.
my world sounds so dark now.=D

when is the super duper hyper me comin back i wonder..

choices.

2010-10-02T13:10:00.000-07:00

regardless , I HATE CHOICES.
why do people have to choose?
for a better life .but how do u noe which one leads to your better life.
urgh.dont u just know how unfair it is to be a person that can have 10000 opportunities to choose yet she'll still choose the wrng one?

dont we just born to know life is unfair.
sometimes we give out 100% but what we recieve is like, just a lil part of it?
oh people , life is just unfair.
just pick it up n keep it in ur fragile heart,.

was really depressed recently.
everything just came to me like,,'hello , i m here to visit u'
darn.
exams. to be really konest i gave up because i m afraid.
what does trials means and what does the real spm mean?
i just dont wanna let them down but thats my best already.
i m not a born -to-be-smart girl , i admit.
thats all i can do n i will do better if i cant.
but i really cant.

friends is another thing i was super worried about.
i used to rely on friends alot. and i mean it.
i have no confidence on what are we so gonna be.
everyone says its ok cz we still can keep in touch,
i personally doesnt think it makes sense.
a person , is gonna live in a new environment,new friends , new life.
there isnt enough time for everyone , right?

and to u , <3
its already 3 yrs n guess what , everything is just fresh in my mind.
how r u doing?
i was sitting infront of my study table n memories just rushed into my mind.
i remember how i promise myself to not shed my tears anymore for u .
but it just dropped easily.
i think that's fate.
like how we are not meant to be.
to recall all these,
arent these jokes?
that had been fooling and torturing both of us?
since the day , i started to grow.
to forget.
to let go.
but until today , i cant forget a single thing about u
altho everything bout u have been dump away.
then i understand.
boy , this is life and this is love.
it;s fated to be so.
lets just get our asses off and face it.
like how u told me. close your eyes and walk thru it,.=]
it;s impossible to forget u and i will never do so.
but havin u as a part of my memories is already enough.
no matter how deep is the cut , one day it heals.
i'm sorry we cant finished the story we talked about.
i believe there's a better future ahead u ,huh?
i think its time to let go .
bye.for the very last time , i love you.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.haha.shut this window down if u seriously thinks brenda is annoyin. i dont give a damn.isnt this my space to just spilt whatever i want?

i m so gonna miss form 5.and my classmates...i used to hate them but i found that they are okay actually.there r somehow funny,nice people....i think,i'm getting use of their existence already?haha.god knows.

for once, let the dream control yourself. i m tired ,really tired. someone , just bring me somewhere pls.

loves,brenda

reborn,.

2010-08-24T06:06:00.000-07:00

it has been a while i havent touch this blog.
i feel really bad bout it and decided to continue writing here.
heeh.
and i've change the new blogskin,.
atleast makes my blog looks alive.
haha.
looks alive.loL

urmmmmmmmmmm.for today,....
i think thats all.
haha

wad i do during cny.=D

2010-03-06T18:32:00.000-08:00

gemia island............

jiajiaaaaa

hahaahahahahhahahaaahhahah.
u mz be waiting for this.=D
yes......
finally theres some picss in brenda's blog.[=

so..let the pictures talks instead of me.
n sry for not putting the potots in order.i m lazy to do so.

sg lembing..^^

turtlingggggg.

the place we first step in

piccies with jia2

*ignore the eyes*..........its the other side of the island.

my room=D

wad i see from my room

wads underneath me for 3days n 2 nights,.

isnt relaxing.i really like there

the fairy tale-ish room

i called it pulau lion.dont u think it looks like a lion

me n yiing.with the welcome drink...

thx sayang for the chic

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had saturday activity ytd.
its like.finally.test is over n the activity is here.
feng wai yi went prefects camp n couldnt attend.
ugh;..u must be very sad.
ahahahahahaha
anyway it gone quite well.
except for those part with the presence of brenda ng.=[
i m sososososo sorry kay.
try nt to show my darn face next time.
n thanks for reminding hw irritating i m.8-l

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thx to mr cher.
i m emo nw.
hahahahaahahahhaha.
dun worry its brenda type of emo.
means she is fine.
just that she loves to think alot .
very alot.
sometimes she is amazed by herself also.
urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......
sometimes.
i really dont know is my life easy or not.
sometimes i will think my life is hard.
but did others had the same thing as i do..?
sometimes i really think i have been thru really really alot.
that i think others havent been thru.
n i m sure of that.
n alot of things.
if u havent been thru.
u seriously don know how it feels.

sometimes i m proud of myself because i m able to hide alot from the others.
but the other time i feel really tired for being happy in front of the others but not revealing my feelings.

just me being me.
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loves.
brenda

heeeeeeeeeeh.

2010-02-25T09:36:00.000-08:00

dont u think he has a nice voice..?gosh!!!!

hahhaaa/stcuk with the pic for new year trip post.
promise will upload soon,

so enjoy d video.!!!!!!!!!11

loves brenda

finally...

2010-02-13T10:05:00.000-08:00

yayayayayayya
finally its cny.
hah.
yayayayayayya
i haf no idea why m i that happy.
lol
everyone balik kampung.
lol
i pun wana go somewhere.................
yay and tommorrow.
owh noh.......its considered as today cus now is already 2 am.14th of feb.
hahahahahahhaa

so high.

kkkk
off to gemia island and sg lembing.
=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDdddddd

haf fun ppl
cny n valentines.=D

[i want u to know , it doesnt matter
cos someone;s gotta let go]

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

31st#

2010-01-30T23:38:00.000-08:00

ytd was adeline's bdae party.
was kinda fun lol.
me n tching was sampat .
we went ard 3
being adeline's angel.
hahhahahaha.'angel'.=D
get me?XP

it was fun tho.

recently was so busy until i really feel like sleeping for a whole month
but the point is.
i dont know what m i busying about.
i dont do my hw like my friends all did.
i dont study like some others did.
wad i know was i just spend my time like that,.like i dont know how actually.
my time past really fast../=
urgh.

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh.
its gonna be new year.!!!!!!!
i want new clothes !!!!!!!!!!!111

but dotn think i m gonna haf one.
lol.

gotta go.!.
bye.s

dont misss me!<3

130th

2010-01-19T07:35:00.000-08:00

haha.i just finished my ideal husband essay.
lollll.
it takes me days to write that.
i wouldnt have write it if pn sujatha didnt add on the new essay.
*who cares*
aiks.
i had been abandoned my blog again.
no idea why form 5 is so busy.
and the cutest prob ever is.
i dunu what m i busying with.
just bla bla bla and 1 day passed.
goshhhhhhhhhhhh.
insane..
bt thankful cus i m still 16.
haha.
and now.
I M SUPER PROUD BECAUSE I M A CADET.
hahahaha.can u imagine someone telling u
'i like ur uniform compoare to that one(the adult one).urs looks more practical'
wooooooooohooooooooooo....
love that person alot man.
hahaha
brenda was super hyper.
always will be.=D

-brenda

dentist.=D

2009-12-29T07:21:00.000-08:00

heeeeeeeeeh.went to the dentist ytd.
cos a week ago my wisdom tooth popped out and my gum got infection.
so doc gave me some antibiotic .
and the worse thing is its actually super painful.
and i m @ camp.
yeah.......untra pain lol.
still, dont want to tell wai yi or anybody else.
heeeeeeeeeeeh.
anyway doc says it was way better already,.
duh.i can open and close my mouth freely now. without any pain

guess what.
i was sort of trembling while waiting to meet the dentist lol.
cos the other reason i go.is scaling.
urgh,.brenda has dirty teeth.
ignore that one.
the main point is.scaling needs those 'machines'.
which is a kind of phobia for me.
when i was 2 or 3 .
thanks to the nanny i felt from the baby chair .
and my dear front teeth dropped.
and it cant grow normally since that fall.
so went to dentist and dear dentist says.
i need a operation.
wtf.i m only 3.an operation??hahaha.
it was horible , believe me.
the worst thing ever happen.
so.take care of your children in the future people.!!!!!
dont let nanny feed them.
because of the stupid nanny that dont let me eat my food.
i lost my 2 front teeth and a horrible experience.><
thats sad.
but for me........
its nice.
atleast.
my friends will say .'i dont remember what happen when i was 2 or 3'
i will say 'but i do'
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh.
thats brenda.
way too special..*geeeeez*

confession.

2009-12-27T07:35:00.000-08:00

brenda promise herself that.from the moment she is 16 until the moment she is not 16.
she is not going to have anything to split to anyone.just the emo stuff.
eventually its a good stuff.to my dear friends.
they wont have to listen to what brenda is emo-ing everyday.
yay.!
as i said.
KEEP IT TO MYSELF.
lol.dont ask why,
because i dont really know why.
its a random idea that i think i had trouble alot innocents because of my darn emos.
so,yeah,.....=D.
brenda will laugh more.no emo stuff in the blog or to friends in a year time.

lol.anyway .
brenda is not drunk now but after some liquor.
so.let me just speak a few emo words before i shut myself.

sorry for being a not good daughter,grandchild,sibling, friend, student,cousin,classmate, a someone , and what so ever.
no doubt i have to thank buddha for granting me a great pair of parents,my dearest siblings , the big family , teacher , classmates , friends and a someone.
thank you.
i really thought of alot recently and find myself seriously useless.
i really wana work hard.i did try but it turns out just way disappointing.
i m sorry.
in everything i tried.nothing success but failed.
or shall i say i didnt work hard enough.
i myself really dont know.
sometimes,i really think that i m special.
i been thru things that others never been thru.
but i found that i was wrong.
did i been thru what ppl had ?
and i find hw naive i m .

to my dearest friend.
i wana apologize alot alot.
cus.ppl who knows me know my words are sharp.
and they say i always hurt the others.
i tried not to but still repeating the same bad attitude.
i truly know critisizing people at the end will hurt myselff too.
so,brenda will be changing her bad habit.
i will try.i promise.
and thank you to those who really,truly treat me as a friend.like a friend.
i have no idea why.
but this year is a tough year for me.
things had changed.
but i m glad that our friendship are still there.
really,thankful.
as we said.4 years and still counting.forever it should be.
and the not so long but had been thru alot this year ones.
thank you.altho we havent know each other deep enough.
we had still been thru highs and lows.
no doubt there's new friendship that appears.which mostly are my classmates.
i take our friendship very very seriously.i swear.

to those who hate me.
soorry for being a bad girl that makes u hate me.
let me know if u really hate me that much.
maybe i will let u whack me.
><

and to the special one.
thank you for being a caring person.
and i m sorry for being so unconsiderate.
hope our friendship will never ends.
friends forever!!!!!!!!!

kay.lets talk about smth rather happy.
had breakfast at home this morning.
dad was so nice that he cook mee.
which we call 'sou mee'.which means long life noodle.
with 2 eggs and a drumstick.
fyi.its a kind of tradisional dish where people use to eat this during their birthday.
was so touched with it.
after than.mum showed me the watch.
which is my present.
its a fila chrono aka chronograph watch.
yeah.its suppose to be a men watch.,,
what to do.brenda like wierd stuff.
and when i put it on.
mum gave me a 'this is obviously a men watch and its too big for u ' look
i don care LoL.
brenda is a wierdo.
so after that day says he wants to go midvalley.
so we went.
as usual.
then reach home ard 4.
and went pasar malam.
to buy our dinner.
and the cake time.
i choose strawberry cake this time.
randomly picked.
from RT.yeah.
it was quite nice.
and thats all bout my day.
isnt it a simple 16th.
just smtg i wanted,.
altho i expect more.....
its already enough.
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh..

thats all.
no more emo.
love's around the air babeh.
xoxo
brenda,!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

finally............

2009-12-26T08:09:00.000-08:00

jeng jeng jeng.
finally its my bdae.lol
perasan siut.
i don care.
just wishing myself happy burfday.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay.
i m 16 now.haha.==
it will be a simple bdae this year.
since nothing is on.so ,,,,,,,.

happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to brenda
happy birthday to me!!!!!!!!!!!

yayyyyyyyy.
i love myself.!

bye.

4 more days.

2009-12-23T09:00:00.000-08:00

hah.finally today i haf de mood to speak.
camp was eventually fun.except for the toilet.
stinks stinks alot.
ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

day 1 *
we did our flag.......
ate lunch..........
set tents,,,,.....
best part is our group actually didnt intro ourselves.
everyone is ignoring everyone.*wierd*
and our flag somehow.i don really like it.
took one course and one test .

day 2*
woke at 5.30.and considered abit late.
went for morning exercise.
dam funny.got that qi gong thingy
sokkuan and queenie were standing beside me and we were laughing like mad dogs.
especially the part where the fella's teeth came out.
hahhahaahhahahhahaa.
then.breakfast...........
took 2 course,,,,,,.
started to make new friends like reshee.
cus we had to cook our own lunch.
he was so dont believe that brenda can cook .
even myself dont lol.
but it turns out nice.
went bukit dunnu what.
walk there.
its nice there.
n its the place i started to get high
super.with all seafieldians.
we get super duper uber high.
and we cant stop ourselves.
like crazies.....
hahahahahaha.
at night took 2 exam.
and sleep.

day 3*
woke ar 4.30 since 5.30 is abit too late.
really empty.was so happy
went for morning exercise but without qi gong.but jog
breakfast and took 2 course.
later played games.
quite nice.
our group get to win a few of them
but its a super hard time to bath
and.dinner
2 tests at night
done the day

day 4*
was suppose to wake at 4.30.
terslept.and wake at 5.30
we were shocked.==
this time still don haf qi gong.nor jog
taken 1 course.and went lunch.and another test
amazingly its the last one.HAHAHA
after that got camp fire.
its kinda disappointing cus they didnt really play much games.
i was hoping for oh so.==
dam sad
nvm.
after the performance we did enjoy ourselves.
but same time felt sorry to those.
sorry for disturbing.
and that night we decided not to sleep/and went to chi chat somewhere.
hoover went in first
then koperal lam.
then thu yuen
remaining me
wai yi
connie
queenie
vei lynn.
laughing whole night.
seriously .
laughing non stop.
ask the people there.
no lies.
the jokes are seriously funny.
HAHAHA.

day5*
last day
sobs
was so tired
i almost felt down when i do qi gong.
and did the mr bean thingy on stage.
really embarassing.
i m sorry
really.
i din noe sir would ask us to perform outside.we were just playing ard the day b4.T.T
and closing ceremony
gotong royong
pack back.
break tent
ciaoz.

now i super miss camp.and canat wait for coutdown duty.HAHAHA

after 5 days.

2009-12-22T04:48:00.000-08:00

ahaha.u mmust be waiting.but wait.just let me shout smth first.i find that blog is my best thing to shout out.
i feel totally better after shouting here.
cus if i tell my fren.they will get sad or emo together.
and it makes me feel worse.
blah.

y cant i go countdown duty?????????????
i m form 4 already ,
if ure not going to let go now then when..???

.............................................................................
omgomgomgomgogmgomomogmogmogmgogmgomgogmoogmomg
urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
why must things like that happen
and its the last nite of the camp.
if its at the beginning at least i haf the guts to apologize and atleast explain.
goshhhhhhhhhhhhhh
why cant u just reply
just say its ok or smth like that.
atleast my heart wont crumple together and feel like stabbing myself.
i mean.
i m super duper really sorry.
and i feel really really guilty for giving that suggestion and made things turn to be like that
I M SO SORRYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
slap me or scold me please.
its totally better than keeping quiet like that.
killing me with silence.
goshhhhhhhhhhh
i din mean it.
sorrysorrysorrysorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
please reply .
please please please............
do the same thing to me and i dont mind.
just dont not reply.
u are killing meeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
please...........
even the last day u sat that far apart.
not eeven a chance for me to say sorry face to face.
T.T

no mood to tell abt the camp ady larh.
tml larh.
please larh.
reply larh.
u are just killing me
bye

suprise.!

2009-12-16T00:35:00.000-08:00

hah
u will be waiting photos at bangkok rite.?
havent.cus i din really take much photo using my cam so currently waiting fr the photos.

guess what.
busy brenda is away again.
to camp this time.

but i have a wierd feeling .
i dont feel like going.
i miss my home.
omgosh.
like super serious.
cos i just came back from bangkok for 5 days.
and now 5 days a gain.
sobx.

i m so gonna miss my dad
my mum
my brother
my sister
my bed
my toilet.
my house.
.T.T.

mummie daddie,
i promise i will take care myself.behave and miss u guys.reallly.i swear.!

to someone,
everything changed.><
and i m totally speechless about that.,
no idea why
but to be honest i really appreciate the time we had.
i'll let go.
enjoy yourself,.
after all its only a short time we met.
heeeeeeeh,,........

smile=XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
brenda loves u all.!
brenda love her family.!

and will miss them.
i think i will cry tomorrow.

geeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2009-12-07T03:42:00.001-08:00

brenda is off to bangkok by tml!!!!!!!!
miss me anyone....??
please......just say yes.
hahahahahhha
crazy girl.
hmph.
i m gonna shop till i drop.
remember what elaine say.
mushroom soup.
and.........................
make sure i have fun.
5 days trip makes me miss homeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.T.T

dun worry.i will take alot alot alot of pixxies.
and promise to tell all alll alllll about the trip.

urgh........still raining..........
dumdum nazneen.
she makes me miss her even more.
grrrrr.
not i duwan to talk or chat with u @ fb but msn but seriously.
canot.
everytime half way using sure my bro or sis kacau.
they wana use,
so....
sry...
lagi tdy u wrote in fb that u miss me.
arghhhhh.
just feel like killing u,,,,....
have no idea why i will miss u that much.
maybe is because there is no one to talk to at home.
i mean.......
quarrel.
another one is elaine LOI.
the other one i s ng voon yee.
seriously.
they are those who always make me frus.but not hating them just,..
those kinda i wana fight back type.
HAHAHA.
yien arhh
tching arhhhh
ame arhhhhhhh.
wen lee arhhh
wai yi arhhhh
sok kuan arhhh
aziem arhhhhh
jivee arhhh
grace arhhh
still got a billions and thousands that i missed.

imm so sad.
mum promise to let me go camp bby saying.no outing with friends.
yeah.i choose camp.
cus.it's really a rare opportunity that she will let me go.
sossoososos.
i was begging her but still .red light.
sad.
but.there is still a chance.
my bdae.
haHAHAH
anyone....???
wana bring brenda out to kai kai..?*wink*
but i think no one wants to bring brenda out anyway,,..
hhaahhaha.
super excited cus hours left until i step in the aeroplane.
BRENDA IS SO CRAZY..!
just too.

i wana talk talk talk talk talk all night.
anyone,,,?????????
nahhh.
fine then.

kay.
i think i gotta go.
sis wana use again.==
so sien rite.
buy me a laptop then.then u can chat with me 24/7.*dreaming*
or a guitar...???pweasee.
then i will play nice songs to u.ahahh

ciaoz.
sayonara
bye.
zai jian
zoi kin.
i love u all.
brenda really loves u guys.

Publish Post

u know who u are.
espeacially recently i dont know what happen,.we get a bit far apart.
no worries.
i trust 110% on our friendship.
i believe true heart conquere everything.
love u my friend.
xoxo.

*if u really miss brenda alot alot.i'll leave my pic there.new one.short haired.=D,..<3

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2009-11-22T09:30:00.000-08:00

finally after years n years of craving.
i went genting.
yeah.
just call brenda jakooon.
she dont haf the chance to go genting like everyone else.
but din manage to play a thing outdoor since it was raining.
grrrrrrrrrrrr.for the very first time i hate rainy day.

n i painted my room green.
bweeeeeeeeeeeee/
makes me think of wai yi.
arghhh.but its toooooooooooo greenish for me.
i mean.
when u haf green walls and green curtains.
u'll blind.
brenda said so.

tdy shee foong's bdae..........
c.i do remember n yet he is complaining abt this.
LAWLLL.
boy. happie bdae.
u rox.for no reason.
hahahahahahhaa.
u're super duper cool.
laughing.
talking.
santa I HEARTS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

he reminds me of true friends.
idk why.
i think he is the first one who tell me very seriously with that face on about stuff like
'true frens really means understand each other not just seeing u everyday and talk alot'
yea bro.
u're rite.
but still missing those time where we both laughing like crazy during math period.
as if we are in a laughing commpetition.
but thats really happy time.

i
really
really
really
really
miss
those
timesssssssssssssssssssssss

yea n i m super duper uber emo now.
this moment.
this second.
stop complaining anything.
i dont deserve thattttttt.

am i a good girl?
am i a good friend ?
am i capable.?
should i ?
or not???
sometimes i doubt myself.
i really do.
do u think i m just that bossy.???
i m sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
for being rude.
for being whatever that is wrong.......
for not trusting you.
for not being a whatever that u needs.

hope the rain will wash off those unwanted..
please.

i really cant do it.

argh......................

confused.

.brenda.

120th.

2009-11-10T02:20:00.000-08:00

randomness made me touch this blog.

ytd had 4a/09 class party.

i lost my voice.
like seriously.
i dare nt talk today .
because......
reallly eww.
i made a right decision to not going schl.
hah.
brenda is so smartttttttt
woohoo.
and the main reason i lost my voice.
i shout n talk alot ytd.

blarhhhhhhhhhh.

i love rainy dayssssssssss.
when i m young.
n now.
but i heard rainy day makes ppl moody.
i think thats true.
maybe.
or.
just brenda is so careless about her friends around her.
i think the 2nd one sounds right.

argh.

someone make me feel useless.
she was sad.i was having fun.
i feel guilty.

someone makes me feel stupid.
she was having something.
i were hoping for something.
i think i'd think a bit too much.

someone makes me feel wierd.
she has that face.
telling me something.
and i can feel her anger.
we.
not like last time anymore.
i have no idea why.
did i ?any mistake..????
i m sorry i dont know why.
she makes me feel miserable.

someone makes me feel uncomfortable.
i think.
its time for everyone to change.
but i really cant accept it.
i understand.
i tried.
but i cant.

someone makes me feel disappointing.
she did things a certain way.
maybe she wants something.
i m sorry to turn my back away.
but she did something.
i think its really bad.

brenda dont love herself.
thats nt what i want.

not having a good mood nw.
and i REALLY DONT CARE ABOUT MY RESULTS!

something new

2009-11-08T05:57:00.000-08:00

haha.
brenda is having short hair now.

she even paint her toe nail pink n green.

she is doing things that sounds so crazy

but thats what she is.

just more than ordinary.

blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i wana go out with my friendssssssssssssss

just anywhere.

with friends.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i miss my friendsssssssssssssss

a lotttttttttttttttttttttttt

6F gatheriing..........

wait for meeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

brenda is cominggggggggggggg.

hah.

wait till i upload pix kayyyyyyyy.

love ya.

tadah

2009-11-04T07:11:00.000-08:00

lovelyyyy
today super super super hyper.
hah.
don care abt phy paper 1 &3 .ignore math1,
i know how many quest i answered wrong. but
I DON CAREEEEEEEEEEE>
it;s totally over.hah.
tho i din work hard as my fellow classmate but i did try okay.
just that the books arent that atractive.
haha.
brenda's lame-ish is coming back.
stop travelling my dear sense of humour.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahhaa
thought of spongebob out of sudden.
the way he laughsss.
so annoyed yet so happy.

ksgfdanmfglerlahgkjr
reallly dont know how to decribe.
haha
omgosh.
i ever overslept and missed my phy tuition
so sad.
hah.
i m so sorry but i really cant get myself up..*guilty*
and owh.darnnnnnn,
i miss 2 important stuff because of exam.
urgh
akon concert duty and the all american rejects one.
i really wana goooooooo!!!!!!!!
shhhhhhhhhhhhhs
so mad with that.

wad else can i say than hyper.

hah.
wad i m going to do..??
hang outs.
piano.
movies
musics
com
2DAYS 1NIGHT!!!!!!!
jelly.

cant think of any else.....
ang ying ying i darn miss u.hah

signing off.
bren<3

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

2009-11-03T04:39:00.000-08:00

1 more day and everything is done.hahaha
the battle is overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
brenda is freeeeeeeeeeeeeee
and things are waiting for meeeeeeeee.
kay bye.
talk abt funny things that happened tdy tml.
don miss me=D

confuseddddddddddddd

2009-09-07T05:40:00.000-07:00

awhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i just need a big big big big bigbig bigbig shoutout.!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

yeah smtg litat.haha.
brenda is so darn lame man
who cares.
i felt myself useless anyway.
just.
everyone gave me a 'brenda u are so useless' look thaat kills me

@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
i hate everything on earth noow.
yeah i don know how to appreciate what i have
did u ever think abt me.?
why she deserve it i dont?
u can do everything for her why not me.
did u ever think of it.
yea.u always say i m smart enuff that u don haf to do that.
did u ever wanna know how 'smart' m i?
did u ever just gimme something okay when i tried so hard.
u just flink it away.
to be honest
i did it with tonnnnnnes and tonnes of effort.
what i want is a nice sentence .
or just 2 words.good job will do.
u pissed me off mannnnnnnnn.
arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@

why it seemed to be sosososso realistic this world.
i cant take that anymore.
u are just like a blardy donkey to me now.
i don know why.
n i realllly really hate u now.
did u ever concern abt it?
huh.
just a lil.
after all,.u didnt apppreciate that.
stop giving me that darn 'innocent' face that i don think it is innocent.
yeah.
gimme that comforting words and stab me in the other second?
please.just get lost.
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@

hah.feeling better now.
why there is humen who love to hurt ppl everyday.all time??
are they just too free ??
so not happy.

will upload smtg happen next time i update.
bye.
pissed off backstabber.

panic

2009-08-13T08:27:00.000-07:00

gosh gosh gosh.
my piano practical is around 12 hours from now
how how hwohwohwowhowhwhwohwo
arhgggggggggggggggggggggg
tensionnnnn
stressssssssss
denise,1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111
die larh.
ahrrrrrrrrrrrrr

booh

2009-08-07T19:12:00.000-07:00

imbackkkkkkkkkkk

booh ..
i have no idea why......
but i just get streessssssed up with this test......
loll.
finally.
its a relieve.
yayayayayayayyayayayayaa.
i slept for 8 hours after went home ytd.
it shows how despo m i to finish the test.
blarhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
had the first new board meeting ytd.
everything was fine.
discussing and laughing around.
gagagagaaggaga.

owh.last sat was agm.
n it was kinda fun .
we get to do our sketchhh.
so funny-ly.
*duh.look who wrote the script larh*
me ofcus.
hahahahahahahahahahaha
kk.
just let the pictures talk..

this is what i do on the sunday before test.*colouring!!!*

UPM!!!its a nice one.mooooooo

AGM.=<

kidos.felt myself kiddy playing with them//

what we did for agm.with hearts.!!

ice cream day!!

2009-07-31T08:36:00.000-07:00

people..1!!!its 31stttttttttttttt
hahaha.
sorry abit too high.
i waited this for so long kay 31st!!!!
yayayayayayayaya.
okay i m just too poor n too despo for baskin ..
tralaalalalal

awhhhhhhhh.
tml august 1st.....................
jeng jeng jeng jeng
its st john agm lollllllll.
what can i sayyyy??
excited?
expecting something cool to happen/??
hahahahaha
i bet there will be some thing cool

gtgggggggggggggggggggggggggg
will be back with the agm photos n owh yeah.i went upm.more n more photos.XP

after a long road.

2009-07-10T06:41:00.000-07:00

woah.......i feel really exhaust this week.
i just feel like sleeping 24/7 ...although i didnt reallly do alot this week.
gosh gosh gosh.
lets talk abt last weeeeeeeeeek.
it was de schl carnival.
i felt so sorry i din really help out ........
went for st john duty,.......*spirited*

besides.i find myself super talkative and lazy.
or just dont have the luck.
why must pn looi keep pointing at my module and said.'why this is blank??'
lol........
the first time,is because i didnt come or smtg like that.
the second time.i really dont know why.

and and....
i 'll be pointed for talking 'a lil' too much.
hello.??what on earth.
i was o silent today okay.i m busy with my own stuff and din get the chance to talk also.
yishhhhhhhhhhhhh,..
just dont get why............

but something wierd happened.
i found myself started to love physics.....
awhhhhhhh.
the sky's falling babeh.
hahaha.

my blogs seems to be so dead.with any pictures.
i will..
i willl
i will
try to take picsssssssssssssssss.more picsssssssssssss.and more more picssssssssss.
i promise.=D

isit too much for me.?

2009-06-27T08:35:00.000-07:00

ha.i 've got alot alot alot to tell.
shut the thing off if u are nt patient enuff to read.*i don mind*
just let me blast eberything out so that i feel better.

warning:it's totally emo and sad.
things are making me crazy this few weeks.
i doubt my ability.
seriously.
i tried very very hard to cope with all the things
but what turns out is .
i ruined every single things
....
i m sorry.
seriously.i m making more troubles for u.
i arranged once u haf to change it so that it is a better one.
i dont want this to happen.
it's like.u are helping me alot alot alot.
n i m repeating my mistakes.
n i cant even arrange it nicely.
gosh.
i m so ooooooooo.USELESS.
and i dont deserve it.
should i just give up.???
can i??
i felt irresponsible like that.
but i already tried my best.
i really dont know what should i do

u expected alot alot more from me.
n i bet i disappointed u once n twice.
gahhhhh.shall i said i m like that.
or shall i tell u i dont work hard enough.

i m afraid.
seriously.

=======================================
u know what i found that life's seriously miserable.
i dont get life.
i always ask myself why is my life like that.
does everyone go thru the same thing as i do..?
why must i get to know that much about life.
i know.
life is beautiful.
but it's also get dark when the sun sets.
do u ever know how lonely is that.?
i m thankful that my health is ok.i got a great family.
but why.
under that.
there's still alot alot alot.
why must ppl keep telling me how life is?
the dark side of it.
telling me the truth they'd been thru thats seriously not what i want.

i m just an ordinary girl.
who wants what i want.
do u know how many times did i smile in the previous week.
n how many times i did when i was in form 2.
why must we getting 'matured' and. having lesser smiles on our face.
I DONT WANT THAT,!

but,can i???

=======================================================

do u know clowns have tears that are unseen.?
how much they worked are unknown
what they know is .
i want to make the kids smile.
they did stupid stuff to make ppl laugh.
but.
do you know what the clowns are thinking?
i'm alone.
why must it be like that.
no one knows.
what can i do?
i m tired.
really.
but,will the laughter continues without me?
let's think about it.

*took @ Sabah.m i good in taking pictures...*nod*

*unpredictable.

i miss christmas.i miss last year.

can u see what's underneath?*

tagg..

2009-06-11T23:27:00.000-07:00

from my babi#
1. The person who tagged you is :
Alice Ang Ying Ying

2. Your relationship with him/her is :
she's my piggie.=D

3. Your first impression of him/her is:
Funny.totally insane

4. The most memorable moments with he/she is:
she invite me to her bdae party

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you is:
ng hui min or ng hueh min arh...?

7. If he/she became your lover, what should he/she improve that:
hah.nothing lol.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, what will you do:
i will kill her n roast her

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
She laugh better than me.wakaka

10. The most desired things you want to do for him/her now is:
hang out with her??

11. Your overall impression on him/her is:
sweettttt

12. The characteristic you hate most about yourself:
hot tempered.

13. The most ideal person you want to be is:
jay chou/

14. For people who care and love you, say something to them:
but i dont???haha.kidding

15. Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you:

1. yien
2. tching
3. ame
4. wen lee
5. wai yi
6. sok kuan
7. voon yee
8. jiveee
9. jie yinn
10. grace

16. Who is 6 having a relationship with?
do u think she will?

17. Is 9 a male or a female?
Female

18. What is 2 studying at the moment?what others are studying??
I bet no one's studying right now >D

19. Who was the last person you had a chat with?
stella.sms

20. What kind of music does 8 like?
hmmm??

21. Does 1 have any siblings?
2 elder bros

22. Is 4 single?
yep

23. What is the surname of 5?
feng

24. What's the hobby of 3?
sleep.XP

25. Do 7 and 9 get along well?
classmates.

26. Where is 10 studying at?
SMK Seafield

27. Say something casual about your eyes:
not nice

28. Have you tried developing feelings for 2?
i didnt try.

29. Where does 9 live?
usj 2

30. What colour does 4 like?
PINK duh

31. Are 5 and 1 good friends?
They're okay (:

32. Does 2 like 7?
don think so

33. How did you get to know 8?
KOPERASI,

34. Does 3 have any pets?
fishy

35. Is 7 the sexiest person in the world?
Shehas nice body figure.

36. Are you sexy?
nop

37. What am I doing now?
blogging duh

I'm tagging the following:

ho want tching.....
n if u 're my frens.do it.

=====================================================================

lol.so sadddd.
i have no idea what i m thinking now.
dammit.
y must it be like that.
ishhhhh.
i prayed soooooo hard to just make u get lost of my life
but why the hell do u just appear once and twice ??
making me looks so darn stupid in front of u.
i tried my best already but what else can i do?
my heart strains when i ever sees u.
let's just pray hard that everything will be over.
although i know.i still loves u.

just not the exam mood.

2009-05-22T01:06:00.000-07:00

lol..........exams' gonna finish ppl......
hah.3 more days of suffering.
lol.its ok actually.cos.i din force myself toooooo hard on this exam.
since u know u wont get ,dont waste your time.
do something that is more worthy.
i watch sososososos many moooooovies.during the exam season.
lalala...
i missed boys over flower's ending.n i duwan to watch on9-ly.lazy.& thx to the lousy internet conection.hah

ppl ard were all stressed out.
sok kuan.obviously.duhh.
wai yi.her worries doesnt show much on her face.
voon yee.kena affected by me.haha.fyi.sitting behind me is a bad thing.my fav.thing to do during exam is sleep.hah
amelia.i cant never trust your 'idk how to do'.ur marks just cheated me .
n all of them.
owh yeahhhhhhhhhhhh.
NAZNEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNN.bwahhahaa.sorry i cant stop laughing.its not funny.
just excited saw u on the paper larh.
haha.sorry if it hurts.=D
ishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........daddy n mum gimme a super duper big NO .
to go out during hols.
or duties.gosh.i miss duties laarh.><
i wana go man.n yet they dun care.

gotta go .ciaoz.will update soon.i promise.......i wont let this blog be un-update.miss going hong kong.hah

lollie iss the magic.

brenda

a long post to all my dearest.

2009-04-30T07:23:00.000-07:00

first....my dear girl that i had knew for four years.
did i actually disappointed u that i cried.?
u know who u are.
n the post.
hah.
please.forget about the brain wash thingie.
plese.just let it go because .we still got next year.
remember what XXXXX said to me that i told u?????
remember that.
ever.i believe u can do it.
hhhaa
n i bet u know what i mean...
dont think too much.
we'll just try harder..........
anyway.u can just split everything to me.
i will take it.=D
bweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
lets talk something about today.
soooo cooooooooooooool.
i just learnt something.
woah.haha.
anyway...........
SERVICE FOR MANKIND.
loves.i just cant resists it.
*this is a soooooo random post*
i get alot frm that.=D.
.and gosh.can u imagine.
today......
no homeworkkkkkkkkk.
hurray .scream ppl=/
i salute u teacher.
n guess what.
i did something AWESOME today.not only today.ytd i think.
i slept in the class.
hello,since f3 i didnt try such thing.lol
its because i cant understnad the darn PHYSICS.
that just kills me.
n decided to sleep since teacher says she dont mind.
ofcourse i dont mind too.hahah
sorry teacher.but what u taught was seriously tough to me.
n thx to SOMEONE annoying that i feel like chopping .gosh larh.

can i drop physics,mummy???????
haha.i bet i will do so if i can.
just llike i choose not to finish physics hw.=D
i hate myself lol
i m being super annoying this year.
super lazy
super not good.
just not nice.
lalalalalalalalalalalalaala.
i cant cope with this and that .
yet i m tso greedy that wants all of it.
hah.

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
sports days.
congrats scouts.!!!!=D
truly.....
hahhaa.a

although i was quite disappointed.
just.i felt quite not nice .
but.
hah.
we just need to try harder,.
anyway.
loves ST JOHN.!!!!!!ever.
SERVICE FOR MANKIND.=D
*which daddy always object what i said abt st john.
i just dont get why,.*

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
to a SENIOR + close friend(to me)

thx for telling me how u feel.
feel grateful that's not me.
anyway........................
please,when u feel not good.just tell me=D
i will let u be the listener.
trust me.
hahahahah.well.
lets talk 'personally'
++++++++++++++++++++++++++
to the one who just RECOVER!
congrats.
n i bet u know how much u meant to me.
friendship for life.
rememer that
FOR LIFE,babeh.!!

gotta goooooooooooo.bye people....
I LOVE U ALL,!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a lot to say..

2009-04-25T08:05:00.001-07:00

haaaaaaaah.how long did i dumped the blog since the depressed post....?
sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
anyway.i was quite 'high ' this few days.
doing crazy stuffs again.yeah.AGAIN.
wait.i have to say something....
1) i m so tanneddddddddd!!!!!!!!.because of hari sukan.heeh.*i m actually ok with that*
2) i met my primary schl frennnnnnn.n i cant accept the fact that who he is.*bang wall*
3) everyone is so patathic talking abt exams.mind you,how long is it counting from now?is it abit too early.?i get angry sitting @ my place looking at those ppl doin 'revision' or so called 'extra exercise.'LOL
4)i m stilllllllll not in a good mood.
5)i really dont know what i m thinking.i m so confused.help me anyone??

heeeeh.just back frm cousin's bdae party.how nice is it to let ur parents hire a clown that u can show off.hah.thats what i saw.
so cute larh those children laughing and playing with the clown.seriously.i misss those time when i was one of them.
and then......went crazy with a bunch of 'small kids'.they are soooooo adorable.how i wish they were my classmates.those guys are like.freaking funny and its like....FUNNy.CUte.
just cant resists to play with them until someone gave me a 'cant u dont mess with a bunch of boys that is 4 yrs younger than u?' look.
wtf,it doesnt matter as long as they are seriously FUNNY.

hah.how long i din get to 'siao' like that already??
just let me be please.hah.
lol.gosh.i miss the kidos now.T.T.
anyways,,ciaoz.

loves.brenda

just like that.

2009-03-27T01:38:00.000-07:00

lol.
i felt so useless today.
utter USELESS
very
alot
banyak
hen duo
darm alottttttttttttttttttttttttt

ish.okay i m useless.
i cant finish my task,.
n my temper was that bad.
n still.havent finish my task yet.
shyt.
and its like.
no possible way i can finish it.
and i did something super wrong today.
which i makes me feel so guilty.
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

i just dowan it to be like that
bt what can i do?
i had tried my best but its still litat.
whaat can i buat larhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
slap me someone.
i know my task was so simple compare to the others yet i still cant complete.
my bad.
i admit.
sorry.
><

pffffffffft.

2009-03-15T01:22:00.000-07:00

#friday.
lollll.didnt went schl .didnt 'make it' actually.some stupid told me she is goin at 11pm lol.its early to me but its sooooooo late to my transporter okay.damn.made me soooo 'outstanding' at schl.lol.fine.n guess what teacher told my mum.
mum teacher
'owh hueh min.she is a shy girl larh.always sitting near the window there de rite??she dont talk alot la.'
'harr??omg.no la.she talk alot at home one.she arh.talk non-stop la.'
'=.='
'urm.i think hueh min's math isnt that good u know.'
'*blur*'
'u c arh.most of them got quite high for math.this is only the beginning of the year.she should get better than that.its considered quite low u know.'
*i know la.ish.i hate my math marks also okay.*
'owh isit.hahah.how bout her addmath arh.this girl arh...*sigh**'
'haha.her addmath..hmmmmmmm.her addmath is goooood.she got almost 100'
*yeah .wtf.1st time got chance to reach almost 100.but i missed it.just because a stupid mistake.*
'owhhh.she like to do things that give ppl suprise lol.'
><.

hahahahahahaha.omgosh.how can a mum varnish her daughter's image depan guru kelas aku???hah.
so funny rite.n i dun likey my results.well.but i think this is already the best i can score.cos.its the first test.lesser thingns to study still i get that 'kinda' result.hate myself.

#tomorrow.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
THEORY EXAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.
9-12
n its @ seafield.
omgoshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i haf no confidence.not even a single percent of it.
pray for me ppl.
gosh.
i feel so bad.
gosh gosh gosh.
grade 6 wehy.
its already over my quotaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
gosh.XPXPXP
die die die.
PRAY FOR MEEEEEEEEE PLSSSSSSSSS.=D

><.not happy.gosh.look who's that

still dont like it

she's the best human to cheer u up/
newly bought.omgosh.saw that monkey?i have a collection of it.*loves*

the sticker.!!hah.it's tough for me lol.anyway,the pink one is so darn useful

heeeeeeeeeeeeeh.<3*wish>

its nothing

2009-03-10T05:37:00.000-07:00

lolllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.i felt like killing myself now.wtf.
my theory exam's on next monday.wad a good begining of the holssssssssssssss.
darn.
can anyone just shot me.??
gosh.i havent even touch my darn book.
my practices were all screwed up.

lalalalala.
n i m darn angry.
u think who u are
controlling my life like i m a whatever???
no i'm not.
things u're nt sure n u ask me to do it?
yeah like it's my job.wtf.
n u just spilt out those stupid words like its my fault.
makin me guilt or wad.
and the best part is u 'll never know when u are wrong.
dont u thought about your mistake.
grrrrrrrrr.u spoilt my day..>,<

not within words.

2009-03-03T07:08:00.000-08:00

lately i m soooooooooo in moood to blast out every single mingle feelings of mine .like duhhhhhh.its definitely better ryte.but i din get to.my com is so busy.idk why.lol/=='

everything on earth is just bugging me from not being a god enough human on earth.
i m tired with this.or shall i say fras.
omgomgomg.
i seemed to be hyper.
i seemed to be happy.
i seemed to be i m so free.
i seemed to be i m okay with wadever i got.
i seemed to be satisfied.
n everything i said seemed to be a big big NO in my blardy heart.

i m so not okay.urgh.

i bet no one knows what the hell brendda is thinking.
fyi.my name is brenda ng.hueh min.ng hueh min is also brenda ng.wtf.
doing stupid thing that u tot is funny.actually it's not.><>
p/s.blardy human.how can u do such things to my so adorable yet sily friends.and yet u said it without thinking the consequences.wtf.

i really do love u all.
wether u bother or not.
i just miss those days.
i miss the silly girl fooling with u all.
primary.form 1.2.
is the best time of my life.
which i wish upon it can repeat.

[lonely.dissapoint.unhappy.]

i don understand.

2009-02-06T06:46:00.000-08:00

finally i'd sort of settle down with my schoolings..atleast i had adapt the BUSYness of it..............................................just urghhhhhhh.it will be tough.that's what i know.
awh tdy's friday peepsssss.i was sooooooooooooooooo high in the class.well i m happy today.idky.i laugh from the first period..............................tilllllllllllll..................................................the last period.
and the bell rung......tdy;s the last day for mas.
she is kinda like.................
cute
adorable
nice
kind
funny.
just omg,
SHORT
n i miss her.lollllllll.
2cekapians/07 lol..............................

i miss this^.
a&w.wtf.
we almost turn the place all over .n the peeps there doesnt likey us.obvious rite when u play n fool like a monkeyyyyyyyyyyy.

'why people nowadays turn back into monkeys adi??'
'why they like samseng betul'
'ishh,they are soooooooo noisy.laugh,laugh laugh.talk.talk.talk.take photoooooo.ANNOYING.'

i dont give that a darn DAMN man.who cares when we all enjoyed it.huh.jealous arh....=D.coi arh.
IMISSSTWOCEKAPKAOKAOOOOOOOO.ftw.i still love them more.like,,,,,,
we spells unity when we are together.hah.

awhhh.i stayed bac tdy.for st.john stuff lol.n wei zhi.haaaaaaaaaaaaah.hw glad that i know you.
'appreciate' sgt............then i waited outside .i was like soooooooo hungry since i din eat anything neither my breakfast.ish.

and then i saw wen lee n tching coming out.hahh.best humen to talkkkkkkk.especially wen lee.then bump into shee foong.n then mike.notice anything........??
ALL OF US WAS 2CEKAPIANS.*i'm lovin it.*

we were crapping n laughing n joking.well when santa n i meets,it has never ending stories for us.
*inside joke*.hohohohohoh,hahahahaha,...............<333333333333333.i><.

my life now.^.black&white,.

i remebered i wannabe a superman when i was young.like duhhhhh,u will be attracted to the super power he had riteeeeee.like i wanna fly n fly n fly.
but now.i realise..life is not just an ambition.and your ambition wont be your life.

and then slowly i learnt something new.siblingsssssss.

my dearly sis&i.do we looks alike.i bet not.haaaaaaaaah.
*this is when she is kinda fat lolll.she hate this pic*

my brother.*super long ago.sorry bro.i know u din expect this.teehee.<3s* style="text-align: left;">i learnt to care.share.love them...........

n i found something precious.friendship.
i was actually a 1amanah student.then teacher counter pick me up n dump me to 1cekap.
i was okay cos.ame was there.atleast.ahah.i was still quiet there since idk anyone there.
diam diam ubi berisi loll.*my peribahasa nt bad huh?*
when time goes on.hahhhhhhhhh.became the noisiest.........
when we went to 2c.even worst........
cos we are already kawan baekssssss.every of us.
heartssssssssss n hugssssssssssss.
n i miss en.musawirrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr,,,,,
MATH RAWKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS MY LIFEe.
the fav teacher
the fav subect
the fav time.
muahahahahahhaas.
n the duty roster.
because of the throphy thingy.the gang of sampats stay back n clean everyday.with the companion of the math teacher.<3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_AsL9tJcPLaY/SYxY4C-SlEI/AAAAAAAAAXo/ppZRyzE70v0/s1600-h/bwendaXP+047.jpg">

*before choral speaking comp..miss that alot huh*

last day of sch;;;;;/i cried.><
just simply love them.

well.i just love them so much that i wanna be with them atleast till f5...>